we had a p52 meet last sunday, and i had a blast.

I never had this much fun fotographing before, and i sure could use the experience..

so this are the best two pictures (in my eyes) I was model for..

    

I've never done something like this before, and i am really glad with the outcome..
both pictures happen to be from Orks hand (and i've marked them rightly so)

yes, pleased..

finally, more pretty pictures from myself

another two of my creations.. :)

i'm getting the hang of it

 

sorry for the dray effect the secons one has.. i can't get that out without making it really ugly..

i like the first one best :)

silece before the storm i think (kinda literally because it's thundering and raining outside as i write this)
(and by silence for the storm means i'm enyoing my last days off before i go to work on friday)

i've spend the last two days away from my pc mostly..
i allready decided i was spending to much time there, but when i was still up monday evening by 2-ish watching stargate universe i diceded it was getting to far.

so last two days have been spend drawing mostly, wich was rather good for a chance.

I spend my time drawing still on the mandal theme i found out a couple of weeks ago.
I actually found a book today, with a cdrom to 'draw' mandala's with the computer...
well, i can really call it drawing basicly it workes like this:

step one..
-you get a screen with ring 1 2 and 3 on te left side (posten under eachother) with a mouse bar next to it from 1 to 100
so:

ring 1 {mousethingie 1/100}
ring 2 {mousthingie 1/100}
ring 3 {mousethingie 1/100}

and on te left side from that tou get a visual picture/drawing of the rings you've just chosen.

not much to it really, but it gives me something to play with and to get my inspiration from.
..

anyway, i would like to share my drawings, for i think they are really nice :)
the first few have been totally hand drawed by myself.

 
 

and now for the ones i 'drawed' on the computer..

 


i like my own hand drawings better then the ones i've printed.. simply because i've put more effort i it.
but the computer drawn mandalas are not bad either... just a lot bigger, and more work to colour up.


ah well :)
it's still fun to do

-J4

I feel like writing today.. I'm not much of a writer.. i mean the best story is still the one i have send to sna  for his Lextalionis Story book. And wich, apparently I haven't even got myself anymore.. so that's lost to me.

But anyway, today i feel like writing, so i'm gonna post several short story's today.. starting with this one:


Oh I justy remebered somthing, when i first started this journal, I wanted to use it for my own written story I was working on back then. I've never finished it, since i gave up on writing at some point. But i would again like to share the first chapter with you guys.

( My own story (no working title) )

a little story in rhime

so, and now i officially have a new job ^^


got everything signed etc.. i'm starting friday 6-11
feels weird, but good.

it might be a job i'll have to be flexible with.. as in hours... but the team seems nice,
it's a buisy shop, and i'll have to put everything i have in it.. but i think it's gonna be worth it :)

let's roll!

i have a job 0-o

oh my god!

just got the call half an hour ago, the Hema decided to hire me!

morgen om 10:00 moet ik er zijn voor het 2e gesprek en de papieren enzo...

net voor de zekerheid wel even met de galawinkel gebeld maar die besluiten pas aan het einde van deze week helaas.

dus tsja..

ik zal bij de hema wel beginnen met weinig uren .. maar dat zal na de inwerkingstijd al snel meer worden zei de hoofd P&O.

oh my god..

i still can't believe it

so.. yesterday early i had my job intervieuw with the dress-shop and it went well ( i think)
yes i was nervous, yes i was trembeling (i even dropped my coat when i wanted to put on the rack)
but I had  a nice conversation, a look around the store and half an hour later i walked out feeling optimistic.

but i don't dear hoping, this job would be awsome to have, but if any other person with more experience walks in and swoops the owners away, then i'm screwed.
i would love, absolutely love.. to have this job

i won't know if i have the job till another 1,5/weeks though

and today i had another job intervieuw, wich was way less stressing for some reason but still a positive thing.
i was out in 15min again.. buisy store equals less time

if i for some reason was offered both jobs, i wouldn't know what to choose..
absolute awsome job but working all saturdays or less awsome job but the potential to shift with hours and workdays.

hard one
especially since i would love to work in fashion

ah, well.. for no it's hoping for the best and fearing for the worst

-J4

I met up with Carlo in rotterdam yesterday to plan/plot things for our to-be-group on unity..
but it wasn't all business, we had some fun too.

we allso had some conversations that still mangle my brain.

everyone knows i'm the helping kind, i'm the caretaker..

carlo considerd that an act of arrogance.

he stated that it was truly arrogant to assume anyone needs your help, and that to think someone might be better of with your help.
or to think that someone might be lost without it.
he allso thinks that it's actually pushing your vision of happyness on somene else, stating that by trying to help someone you actually push your vision of happyness over the one that other person might have.

and i can't help getting very confused by this.
my brain see's the logic, but i can't help feeling really akward and lost

i'm not helping for myself, am i?
do i truly believe that someone is apparently not capable of helping themselfs, and thus i am arrogant enough to think they might with my help?
in my brain it doesn't work that way, i help a person out of the good of my heart.. i think..

is it wrong to reach out that helping hand? is it wrong; when i see someone struggle, to step up and offer my help?
in my eyes it never was, but now i'm doubting.

damnit carlo.
damnit

23 and counting ^^

nu al dank aan alle digitale e-cards die ik zo net in mn emailbox heb gevonden! dat is nog eens leuk wakker worden!


edit:

ghaaaaaa! Ik ben uitgenodigd op sollicitatie gesprek bij Galajurk.nl!!!! aankomende woensdag!!! *freaks out*

i wasn't planning to go, but i still went.. traveled to Uden, payed on the spot and went for it.

and it was the right choise.

now, i must say that Myriad is still a emo-heavy event for me, i have 1 person hanging on me for his sanity and since he's orga; i pay heavily.
but...ah well.. that's just what you do then.. right?

Myriad is in need for some fixing communication wise and orga wise.. not that it's bad or anything.. it just needs work.
and lies had a point there, there's no-one really wanting the heavy shit (people like to have lives somewhere along the way too)

so..well.. being an npc so close to the orga structure, i get a lot of emo-shit on my back.. wich is oke, 'couse that's what i do best and that's what people love me for. and this weekend wasn't anything different.

but enough about that.

apart form oc annoyances and bubbles popping.. it was fun :)

i had fun as Keyla, the forever-slave.. especially during the fnu-hunt *grin*
i mada a nice victem, and a good scream

the rest of my time has been spend oc a lot, trying to help ork, and later simon.. to get at least the bazar done.. i didn't help with the rooms in the end.. because, well... let's just say they didn't need it.
i allso played a General.. that was fun.. openly spying and meddeling on/with the ambassador (niels) .. that was hilarious..
the dinner was fancy-pancy.. thumbs (and everything else) up for that

sunday was mostly spend doing an outside-quest for the players..
we npc's had a camp, some fighters, 2 scouts, a mage and a healer(me) ... and the camp poofed.. yes you read that right it poofed.
we sort of played hide and seek there, and that was a lot of fun!
so, after all that i spend time clearing out the tent.. and then the rest of the terrain.

all in all i had a good weekend. allthough i now have blisters, bruises and a sore back.

so, no moots next weekend for me.. but it seems that i will be spending my birthday (on the 17th) with my boyfriend..
or at least i will be at his house while he's at work.

oh, and friday i'm gonna drop some kittys of at their new home :)

-sollicitaties vandaag verzonden: 3. De tuinen, Madame Tussauds en de bijenkorf

sooo.. no myriad because i wanted to go to the moots.. and now, no moots.. i decided not to.


and yes that means i could still technically go to myriad, but i don't feel like it.


i'm not feeling up for it, socially.. i'm just socialble atm.. maybe it's the sudden turn to autum.. but more likely because i feel weird.
i feel... i dunno... stupid.

not being hired is getting to me, it erks me under my skin..
and yes there's more, but that's for me to sort out..

so any tips on how to find myself again?
oh, and how to spend my 23rd birthday? without meeting a lot of people?

-J4

not going to post the whole story yet, simply because i'm just awake and still all emo and drained

i've been dredding this point since two symbols events ago, i know i've only been on symbols since the 5th event.. but symbols to me was home.

i can remember the person i was, running through the gate wounded and confused.. not even knowing my name or age..
and god how i've grown since then. Vlinder, so i was called.. a name that stuck to the village like glue.
everyone seemed to like me, everyone knew who she was. and everyone took care of her.

i went from a gril hardly speaking changeron, and currupted by moneke-thama.. to a well-love normal changeling up to the point that i even got myself engaged the very last event.

so much has happened.

and so much people have died.

so much thama's have died.

i'm still in working progress.. i might write my story some day, and if i do i'll be sure to post it.

but for now all i want to do, is cry my heart out

symbols is no more

This was by far the best show i could ever pick to watch.

as a kid i was a huge fan of the series, history was allways my favorite subject anyway..and dinosaurs just fasinated me.

so when i saw the commercial for this show a couple of months ago, i knew i just had to see it.

and it was so absolutely worth it

let me show you a few of the pictures i made:

 
Name: Stegosaurus (pronounce as; STEG-oh-SAW-us)
Lived: 154-144 Mil years ago
Diet: herbivorous
Fossils at: North America
 
Name: Brachiosaurus (pronounce as; BRACK-ee-oh-SAW-us)
Lived: 155-112 Mil years ago
Diet: Herbivorous
Fossils at: Africa & North America
 
Name: Torosaurus (pronounce as; TOR-o-SAW-us)          Name: Ankylosaurus (pronounce as; an-KIH-loh-SAW-us)
Lived: 71-65 MIl years ago                                                        Lived: 71-65 Mil years ago
Diet: Herbivorous                                                                        Diet: Herbivorous
Fossils at: North America                                                          Fossils at: North America
 
Name: Tyrannosaurus Rex, junior. (pronounce as; tie-RAN-oh-SAW-us rex)   and Mom
Lived: 75-65 Mil years ago
Diet: Carnivorous
Fossils at: USA and Canada


i totally loved the show, it was brilliant, wonderful, amazing and spectaculair..
it was everything i dreamed it to be

*dreams off*

right, i've finished up on the whole archive of QC (Questionable Content) and it has screwed my brain massivly.

somehow i feel the urge to see *hee* a lot, to giggle my but off and to make silly and utterly weird sexjokes with no content.

darn, i'm corrupted.

it even made me have thé most weird convo with Arjen on msn in the world, and managed to get myself even more loved by him..
dunno must have been the whole 'wearing swimsuits in the shower' and 'a girls day out' discussion

euhr, right.

as i said, i feel compusivly disorderd, utterly female, and very very less sick.. joy to the werid world of webcomics..

darn you richard, darn you

*hee*

drat

as some of you might notice, i am on msn during work hours.. wich means i have come down with this being sick far enough to actually call in sick at work.

in all the time i've worked i can not remember ever, ever calling in sick. bleuh

so, please, if any of you have any tips on stuff to do at home.. do tell me..

youtube mocies, normal movies, books, webcomics.. anything you can think of..

because www.questionablecontent.net/ is not going to last me a couple of days anymore, and  www.thatguywiththeglasses.com/ is only amusing for a while.

hit me! i'm in for anything

It was bound to happen with all those flu virusus in the air, and all the job-stress i have been enduring lately.

i'm sick.

mind you i don't think i have the pig flu, because i don't have a fever. Just a soar throat and a head full of jukkie green stuff.
and all of that in my last week at the animalshop. bah, i've not called in sick for the whole time i've worked here so i'm not starting now either.

darn you flu/cold!

sidenote: i've actually managed to get myself certain of a new job for 90% :D  yay!
basicly all i need to do is get the paperwork done and signed.
but i'm still waiting for an reply from the other job i applied for, and if i get that i'll make my choice.


so, some positive and some negative news.

being sick allso means i'm skipping my first week of the new dance season, i can hardly breathe as it is.
the good thing about it is that i probably won't be sick at symbols *lol*  for like, the second time in a row.

a well, after this last week on the job i'll be having 3 whole weeks to myself to spend sick (preferably not, but knowing my murphy status)

time for new movies, and hopefully visiting friends

vandaag was mijn afspraak bij het UWV, en hoewel ik er niet veel van verwachtte ging het juist veel beter dan ik ooit had durven dromen!

na een gesprek met mijn werkcoach kreeg ik een 3 vacatures mee, waaronder 1tje van een collega van hem.
die kwam ook aan de tafel langs om over de vacature te vertellen, vroeg of ik mijn vernieuwde cv wou mailen en nu om 15:00 nog geen 4uur later heb ik de werkgever van dat bedrijf aan de lijn gehad, of ik op gesprek wil komen!
wow!

dus morgen om 12:00 heb ik mijn afspraak in de winkel, voor mijn kennis-making gesprek! ik ben blij!


*stuiter*

en een stukje over de ijs en vuur serie! warning might contain's spoilers!
( het lied van ijs en vuur )